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Long time, no anything

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 16:39:12 GMT

Wow.

I was retarded.

But I guess I still am, and that's why I'm going to restart my Xanga.
Actually, it's because my school blocked every single fun thing in the world, and so now I'm lost.

[at least] 10 THINGS WRONG WITH MY LIFE [right now]

1. I am lonely. Whoopdie Doo.
2. Criminology is kicking my butt.
3. Hell, nutrition is, too.
4. I realized, now that I have at least some motivation to do something with my life, that I have f*cked up enough that I will NOT get any good scholarships, therefore my dream of becoming a Criminol Psychologist has officially been stamped with about 30grand in student loans.
5. My psychologist is literally avoiding me
6. I can't talk about the thinks that are driving me mad (stephen), because, first off, people ARE watching. I'm not stupid. And secondly, everyone has heard flipping enough about it. But hell, this is my blog, so I shouldn't care what other people think? But still, the legality of talking about it is very, very iffy.
7. I'm fat, damnit. Oh well. My shrink was telling me yesterday that females tend to lose weight at the begining of a relationship because they're happy. So, obviously, one would gain weight when it ends, right? THE so-called-RELATIONSHIP ended over THREE months ago. Why am I not getting back to normal?? Eek.
8. My sister walked in on me in the shower. Believe it or not, I have an issue with naked-ness. She sat down on my toilet and talked to me while I was trying to get my great white body squeaky clean. Akward.
9. My parents are leaving for Florida. Without me. Boy, the last time they left me alone, I did GREAT [sarcasm]. I'm not planning on being a bad person, but my mind gets weird when I'm alone. In the words of Motion City Soundtrack, 'I get lost, messed up and bored when i'm alone too long...I can't sleep, function or eat when I'm not with someone'.....................bleh.
10. Something is squeaking in the background and I am going to get up and beat some butt very, very soon if it doesn't st---wait, it did. Nevermind.
11. It started again.
12. I feel like I'm losing my friends, but nothing has changed. It's weird.
13. I'm regretting a certain email I sent to a certain boy saying a certain something about stopping some stuff...huh?
14. I'm out of chapstick. OH MY GOD I'M GOING TO DIE.

[hopefully] 10 THINGS NOT WRONG WITH MY LIFE [right now]

1. I'm going to graduate high school with at least 30 college credits. Probably more.
2. I am not failing school. Not even close
3. No one has died.
4. I get the house to myself for almost a whole week! I'm happy, yet as number 9 on the above list hints, i'm terrified. I do NOT want to be kicked out.
5. I actually slept last night. Sleep has been an almost regular thing lately! Maybe i'm getting better, or my mind is just rejecting the bad stuff and I'm pretending it didn't happen? Oh well, regardless of anything, I'm SLEEPING! No one seems to understand the wonderfulness of this.
6. My self esteem, is officially in the positives, even if it is very, very small.
7. My no-swearing thing is kind of working. A little. Sorta. So far, the only thing I've stopped saying is 'pissed off'...I now say 'P's me O', which is kind of retarded, but fun to say all the same.
8. I.....don't know. I'm not dead yet
9. I still have an amazing job with amazing people.
10. I'm blogging, which might be one of my favorite things to do.

Bleh. Iono. I hope I'm not in trouble for anything, even though I haven't really done anything trouble-worthy...

FINALS

Fri, 25 May 2007 18:14:38 GMT

YO BIZNITCHES!!!
GUESS WHAT?????

IM FUCKING PASSING MATH! YESYESYESYESYESYES!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, finals are almost done...Its such a relief, even though they just barely started...

Choir-LesMis and singing. A-, probably.
Spanish-Will get A
Biology-94!!!
Multimedia-A.
Wld.Geography-Done, a.
Foods-Done..I think I prolly got a b :)
Alg.2-84% on part 2, 74% on part 1
English-90%

So, i'm Passing!

WITH A GODDAMN CAPITAL P! YESSHHHHSHSHS

Monday, April 16, 2007

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 19:28:11 GMT

I love xanga. And I don't like myspace. But I have succumbed AGAIN and got another one. I only have, like, 9 friends, so, join me. or something. Does anyone even read this?

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 14:53:55 GMT

Does anyone think i'm crazy, talking to myself en espanol? Oh well, i'm going through mexican boy withdrawls...Only two more days.... *sigh* I love working with sexy illegal people. Not that they're illegal, you know, but i needed something to fill the space.

I'm babysitting the chillens on friday. I think i'm happy, but who knows if zoey will be nice? Eek.
We've had this skunk around my house, and last night, I filmed my mom going out to shoot it...she was still in the house WITH THE DOOR CLOSED. I was trying to make her sound/look like a hick, but then she started talking and was using proper english, so that ruined that. I need to get a picture of me. oh well.

BYE!

frickyes

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 15:28:02 GMT

Guess whos going to LA? for the second time? First legal time?

ME. Biznatches.

<3

I EDIT ALOT <3

I'm hungry :( Oh well. Actually, its more thirsty, but hey, who cares?

Is this working?

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 15:53:15 GMT

Hello. Once again, typing things up on Microsoft wordinstead of doing my work. I’m almost done, anyway.
So, it appears that my text is not showing up on my layout unless I highlightit…is it happening on anyone elses? Does anyone even read this? Eek. Maybe I’lljust change the color. Yeah. That.
I feel like someone chopped up a robin and put it on my forehead. Lol. The bangsare bad, and I’m having a bout of leprosy (not really, just dry skin), so I’mtotally gross today. And I feel all constricted and such. And I’m hungry. And I’msaying ‘and’ too much.
Erm……..choir kind of sucked baloney today. (I know, that sounds really gross)…only58 days until school is out. So happy.
Okay, well, bye!

So today...

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 16:51:40 GMT

Today is going okay. No one is yelling "slut!" in the halls, or even looking at me...hmm. Well, I feel rather alone since bernannar isn't here for the next half of the day and becky is...Actually, I don't know where she is. Its a good feeling of alone, though, since I don't have to talk and pretend I'm okay (no, I really am, I promise, i'm just angsting.), and cherish is at lunch with...um...whatshisname...tall dude with hair...
CHRIS! yes, i remember now.
I don't have gum, I'm sad.

Er........Jesus, I don't know what to write.

My hair looks like a drunken person cut it...oh, wait, they did.
Fudge.

Ummmmmmmmm.........................

I keep having deja vu every couple minutes. And I feel lonesome. And I miss katie...I haven't really missed her much this past year *lie*, but this is the type of stuff i'd tell her and she'd yell and make me laugh...haha. By the way, if you read this, congrats on going to graduate. lol.

So, I'm failing school kindof. I have As in english (wow), spanish, choir, multimedia..and...thats it. I have no Bs, 2 cs and 2 ds. one d is a D+ though, so maybe soon.

My toooooooth hurrtttss.

Who wants to go to sadies with me? I was thinking about asking KM (i have a dress), but since I didn't go to work last weekend, I don't know where exactally we stand.

The end of the world is coming. RAWR.

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Travis let me steal alot of his CDs, and summer bought me Josh Jaques (fathead's little bro) band's cd. they're called gut bomb...its like davy havok really pissed off and drunk. Interesting, no? I don't know how to describeit, but its fairly good. I also took his "badass" mix. lol, it has I believe in a thing called love, so its not really...uh...bad. hehe.

Bell rang, gotta go to class.

Faking a smile with the coffee to go

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 16:27:40 GMT

I LOVE MUSIC!

Every so often, I get reminded of that. It's kind of amazing how it is such a part of daily life that you almost forget about it, but then youre listening to a song, or singing, or practicing piano or something, and its like

WHAM

...only better

<3

LongLongLONG entry.

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 16:12:39 GMT

Well, hello there. I hope all is well with the world…
I’m sitting here in foods, typing this on Microsoft word so I don’t get in trouble for being online. Oh well…
So, a couple slightly-intersting notes about me…My ideal boy is brown/black/dark hair, dark or green eyes, and tallllllll…..I have a slight…I don’t know…crush/flirt thing with this dude…he’s got blue eyes, blonde/brown hair, and he’s not a lot taller than me. He’s twenty, he smokes, and wants his eyebrow pierces. I can’t pronounce his last name correctly and he has a weird southern drawl. As I’m typing this, I realize that I know nothing about him other that he got rice all over himself and likes to stare at people (actual conversation: D-“what are you doing?” KM-“staring at girl” *looks at Kathryn* KR-“what? Why? Huh?” KM-“nevermind” *laughs* KR-*BLUSH*, D-“You know, I think I will take that hour long break.” *winks* KR-*BLUSHing continues*…
Yeah, so I’m pretty much confused and probably wrong about the entire thing, or maybe there’s a bet going on to see who can get the bosses daughter in bed soonest or something ridiculous, but for now, I’m okay being in my owl delusional world where I’m jailbait…teehee.
Another interesting fact-It has been over a year. Shocking, no? I was looking through the journal that I started the day I came back…..wow. I was a pissed off little girl. I really don’t remember much of last year in general, but some things pop up…mostly about CA, though. I remember getting into a screaming fight about who the control freak was, having to pick KY up out of her vomit, Bubbah/Vegas, Chris and Ceaser…lol, and the freaky trip back home. I am really surprised that I still am at home, alive, with no lawsuits or anything…the closest thing to dead I got (physically) was almost getting my eye scratched out, but I don’t blame her one bit. It kind of makes me mad, though, that my parents still think I’m a bad kid because I was caught smoking…I mean, I don’t drink, steal, get into fights, curse at them, I’m not a Satanist, my grades are…well, were…okay, and I come home when I’m supposed to. I don’t skip class and I don’t disrespect teachers (except b.b. but that’s just because I’m a witch.)….
I’m quite hungry. I still have half an hour until lunch.
OOOH! I get to go to FCCLA state on Wednesday! I’m kind of (very) excited, but I’m flipping failing out of school! I have two flipping ds. I have one in math (I know how-failed a test then failed the fricking PAWS [damn them, we’re starting them again today.]), and one in World Geography, which I don’t get because I didn’t do only 3 assignments and I did all the rest! And got As! Phooey. Oh well. My GPA won’t be bad when it’s combined with last semesters.
I like garnier fructice conditioner. The shampoo sucks, though.
Can you tell I’m trying to waste time? I’m supposed to be working on a food-service career paper, but I have two more weeks and I’m basically done.
Jeeze, I keep thinking about KM. I don’t think I even like him, I just think I’m so flippin’ desperate for male attention…*sigh*. On top of that, I’m a flirt-slut (not slut. Flirtslut, damnit.)…

I got a bunch of strawberry-smoothie-coffee-vomit-cigarettebutt-beer-starbucks/mcdonalds-sunflowerseed crap on my on Sunday when I was taking out garbages….

The choir trip was fun, kind of.. I would have been better if kallie wasn’t there, or maybe if we had ducttaped her hands, feet, and mouth, and ripped out her vocal cords and tounge…but, life doesn’t always go as one wishes.

I got a new cd…grammy nominees, 2007. I don’t know why I bought it, except for it had Death Cab for Cutie on it….oh well. Anyway, the point: makes good workout songs. Even the slow ones. Of course, I only put songs I might be able to stand on my Shmoogie, (that means almost everything except for JT and the pussycatdollsthings)….I figure since I’ve gone off the Atkins for two weeks (due to not being near my house with my carb-friendly food), I have to do something…so I’ve been exercising my ass off (not literally, sadly. Barely figuratively.). I watch DVDS on my computer while running, but now I have officially seen every DVD in my house 4 times, so if anyone has any dvds with English subtitles, I’d adore you forever if you lent them to me. Lol.
I still have 15 minutes left…of what should I write?

Um……..I’m very cold. I got 3 new sports bras to keep my breasts from hitting my when I’m running…um….I need to go shopping, I’m almost out of incense, my chin is really broke out, I’m still a harry potter fan, I watched the Lizzy McGuire movie two weeks ago and I AM NOT ASHAMED, uh……….I have nathan’s name-mark on my hand-in permanent marker. It looks like the American eagle initials. 8 minutes…I should just copy and paste this now…maybe. Yes. BYE!

finally, warmth.

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 23:11:18 GMT

Okay, so, apparently, the day has decided to be wonderful, happy, and warm. I'm quite excited.
The lowcarb thing is doing well.
got on the treadmil.
Cleaned the house.
took ONLY three-fourths of 5hrenergy
Slept till 11
Found good LC recipes
Listened to great music
WENT OUTSIDE FOR MORE THAN 30 SECONDS. this is rare. Couldn't resist the warmth. (67.3°)
Made lemonade.
Drank lemonade

All in all, greatness. thinking of skipping tomarrow and doing the same thing.